Chasing my dream- My X-Factor Philippines Audition

I'm a long time X-Factor avid fan. Hahaha. Guess what? I auditioned for the X-Factor Philippines.. Hahahaha. I never thought that I would have the guts to do such since I'm very shy person and has no self-confidence. I marked November 7, 2011 and went early to audition venue. Nope. I'm not gonna say my audition piece because it's so shameful to tell and besides I had regrets why I'd pick that song.

So I went there early. By the way, I haven't told anybody until today. When I got to the place, there were about ten or more people already waiting outside the gym and most of them are gays. After a long hours waiting, they finally opened the gym and I fall in line to get my number. That time there were more than 200 people who auditioned and I got the number 056. The X-Factor staff will provide you an information sheet where you have to fill in your name, address, title of the song, etc. At the back of the sheet, there were several personal questions about your family background, ambition, why did you join the show, etc. Contrary to what you have seen on TV, there were no celebrity judges. We were entertained by a mere production staff only. In the sheet, it was stated that you have to undergo THREE levels of auditions. I'm not sure though if the LIVE audition is already included in the three stages that was labeled in the sheet. Imagine? You have to go through rigorous auditions before you make it even to the LIVE audition? Before the sing-off started, we were told not to wait anymore for the result but instead they will be the one to call us back if we made it to the first audition.

There were no judges at that time because we have been told to sing in front of a camera. The staff keeps signaling to smile in front of it. I gave the camera a smirk.We are only allowed to sing 2 minutes.

I was so NERVOUS. The feeling is indescribable. The fact that it was my first time to sing in front of the public specially in a gymnasium. Even up to now, I still can't believe why I did such kind foolishness. That moment marks a lot of my first.

1.) First time to sing in public.

2.) First time to join a singing competition.

3.) First time to go to Digos City proper. Yeah, I auditioned in Digos City because I thought that nobody could identify me there.

I almost passed out when it's my turn to sing. OMG! I was told to stand in front of the camera.

Smile! Smile!, that jerk staff exclaimed.

But no I didn't. Or did I even hear him saying that? All I know is that I was so nervous. I'm sweating all over my body. The music started and I gave my best shot. And so  I sing, sing sing...

Not that I can sing well but I thought I really did great. The feeling after I sang was liberating. To tell you honestly, I was craving for more. I'm wanting it. I'm not  a good a singer but all I know is that I can carry a tune. But the hell I care!

I was glad because sometimes while I was walking, people recognized me and they would extend their congratulation to me. AHAHAHAHA. Ewwwwwwwwww. I swear I really don't know why they would do that. I really don't know. Well, you cannot judge my performance because you are not there nor I am coz I'm bias.

If you ask me if I'm waiting for the call back? Of course, I am. But mind you, there were so many good talents there who can sing better than me so I'm only hopeful and not expecting at all. It was a good try though. I know that if you want to go farther then you have to start somewhere. It won't kill you at all.  If you will not try, then how you will know? You cannot won in a lottery if you will not bet. There's no really harm in trying and in trying you start to chase your dreams. Perhaps, you readers would mock or laugh at me but it won't affect me. Why? Because if I didn't join I will regret it for the rest of my life. And I don't want it to happen. Damn it! I will only blame myself if that happens. It can't be denied that in that kind of competition, you must have both talent and luck. I might have the luck but do I have the talent? Do I have the X-Factor?